I Miss Them

With James’ only mammaw left and her being so sick in the hospital (she lives in Texas) it has reminded me of how short our time could be with her and was with my grandparents. My mind has been flooded with all the memories of my grandparents and oh how so much I miss them.  Both My Mammaws were the most wonderful women in the world. I also think about the lost time during my Teenage Years when I just didn’t seem to have time for them. They were still there for me during that time, but we weren't as close as we should have been.  I’ve been thinking about here lately where I would really like to be at the moment if I could choose anywhere or anything. I decided I would love to be taking a nap in that ice cold room laying in a super warm waterbed of Mammaw Jean’s with that old box fan blowing at the foot of the bed. Then I decided the only thing better would be her in the kitchen cooking up one of her concoctions that she would make me eat or a special lunch for just the two of us.  My mind drifted  back to all those summers spent just hanging out on the front porch all day watching the cars go by with Pappaw Kyle while Mammaw slept the afternoon thru (she worked 3^rd shift).  If they could see our families now they would be so proud of what we have each overcome and accomplished since they have been gone. I also thought about all the things that have happened since they have been gone. Pappaw and Mammaw never got to meet Nate, Jaden or even Seth and Hensley.  I’m very thankful they weren’t here to see Jaden’s battles through his 2 open hearts and everything else he’s endured. I really believe they couldn’t have stood it.  I’m still learning how to make Mammaw Rosie’s biscuits. I remember watching her countless times making them, but mine have yet to turn out like hers would.  My grandparents knew me better than I knew myself. They were always there to listen to me when I was afraid to tell my parents something. They were always there to tell me when I was doing something wrong. They also were sure to let me know when I was doing something right.  I miss them more than I've ever missed anything in my life. Even now I can barely see the computer screen through the tears.  I just hope I can use this experience of going through all my memories with them to remind me to show those around me how important they are and to give the very best of myself in everything I do.  If you're still reading, I'm glad you stayed till the end and I appreciate this opportunity to share my thoughts. My desire is that Jaden will grow up some day and be able to have all these great memories stored inside his heart of his grandparents (my Momma and Daddy James’ Mom and Dad) like I have of mine.  At the end of this month on the 30th will be 8 years since I lost my papaw. 8 years, how could this be?  I was reading yesterday in my devotion book, it said that Earth has no sorrow that Heaven cannot heal. How true this statement is and even though my heart still hurts for them, I’m clinging to His promises that the day I die or the day Christ returns, I will see them again. So thankful to know that they loved the Lord and trusted Him as their Savior. Looking forward to that glad reunion day.