Second Week of Pre-School Assessments

The last two weeks have been a bit overwhelming to say the least...My mind has been flooded with new strategies and plan ideas from different specialists and Teachers....This past Monday Jaden met his Occupational Teacher, Tuesday and Wednesday the Vision Specialist came back for more testing and assessing, and Friday he met the Physical Teacher that will be working with him.....James and I went to our final Meeting with the Pre-School Board on Tuesday March 8th. It was a very lengthy meeting since Jaden was assessed in several different areas....each teacher read their reports and then the Vision Specialist read her report in fine detail so that each Teacher understands clearly how hard it's gonna be to teach Jaden due to his vision delay......I have learned more about Jaden's CVI (Cortical Visual Impairment) from this Specialist just only being in our home the 3 days she was here than I have the whole almost 3 years of his life....She shared in the meeting how most kids with CVI tend to gain more sight as the brain gets stimulated and gets better over time however Jaden has optic nerve damage from the brain bleed as well to both eyes, so his case is a little different from kids with just CVI......she was hopeful that his vision will continue to get better because of how well he is learning to adapt to his vision delay by way of his speech and tactile hands on learning experiences......I will say that sitting through this meeting was tough......James and I both know that these teachers are gonna give everything they know to give Jaden what he needs but hearing all the scores and how Jaden falls into the Multiple Learning Disabilities Categories on every assessment weighs so heavy on our hearts.......we knew he was behind and expected it but it's still hard sitting through it and hearing it read to us by each teacher and specialist there in that meeting room......we struggle with the unknown of Jaden's learning abilities and in all stages of his unfolding life, if he will gain an education, find a job and develop a career, raise a family of his own someday.....you know that every parent has all these high expectations for their children......James and I just held tightly to each others hands during the remaining of the meeting. We knew within our hearts what we were each thinking and feeling the same exact thoughts even though we couldn't share them with each other till we were walking out to our car together........With all that being said......I have been doing a lot of soul searching these past few months leading up to Jaden's 3rd Birthday........You know their comes a time in our lives when sometimes we have to just be still and listen to our hearts and seek out the Lord and ask Him, beg Him to give us some insight as to why we are going through this hard, long Journey of difficult times.......Looking back over these past 3 years, I know that I could not have made it without the Lord.......He has been my ever-present deliverer......It's when the sky of Life is covered with clouds that have made me seek, really seek and ask the Lord to please help me overcome my brokenness of a mom with a cute little boy that is going to face many, many tremendous obstacles with his handicaps......I wrestle with the realization that often life doesn't seem fair. How could it be, in a world where so few play by Gods rules of righteousness and justice? The clouds of unknowing still cover the sky.....We've watched our son experience and endure physical pain and yet, the Lord has helped us to discover a truth that the storm clouds brings us to a realization of how much we need the Lord, and cry out to Him, He assures us that He will never leave us.....We are waiting and longing for the heavy black clouds to break; and the sun to shine again..... I'm so grateful that I still have him.....the Lord has blessed me beyond measure.....things could be much, much, worse and I do realize that.......I'm getting to plan my soon to be 3 year old little boys Birthday Party.......Some of Jaden's little friends that were born within days and weeks of his Birthday, their parents will celebrate their child's 3rd Birthday at the graveyard where they laid them to rest, they didn't make it......Blessed, yes, I know I'm blessed.....My spirit has been lifted as I came across some famous words "I thank my God for my handicaps, for, through them, I have found myself, my work, and my God." ~Hellen Keller (born Blind and Deaf)~ as I continued to read through her life story she went on to say that she urged people to learn four little things in life 1. To think clearly without hurry or confusion 2. to love everybody sincerely 3. to act in everything with the highest motives 4. to trust God unhesitantly.....after reading through her life story I realized that all these inconvenient interruptions of my plans (Hopes and Dreams) for a happy, easy, smooth, problem free successful life have been forever changed by way of not my plans but the Lords plans for my life.....I'm certain that the Lord allows problems for growth in the Christina Life....Problems help us to reach out to God and allows us to trust Him more.....Now I know the hidden truth , it is an evidence of Your presence that You allow problems......to focus the next step of what You want me to accomplish in my own life, and accomplish through me in my family and friends......After asking the Lord this He has showed me by way of prayer and reading that The bigger the problem, the more of His abiding presence I will receive....I know there will always be problems and difficulties down this Journey of Life but I'm so thankful that the Lord will never leave me where I am, He will help me to grow through them but will give me the power to triumph over them.....So what's the Lord trying to teach us? There's no problem too big that the Lord can't solve....As long as we are all alive, there will always be problems....James and I are not the only parents in this world that has a child that's developmentally behind (even though at times we feel that way)....The Lord wants to get us to the place where He is our only security and assurance.....So in conclusion, I'm asking What would you do if you trusted God completely? "He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose." ~Elliot~

James and I prayed for wisdom and guidance and above all the Lords will with Jaden and Pre-School and the Lord has answered us.......Home-Bound Schooling until the end of this Calender School Year which is the first of June......We will meet again at the end of the school year to determine if Jaden should attend at the Pre-School or continue Home-Bound for the 2012 School Year........for those of you who have helped us pray regarding Pre-School, thank you!!!